Sweet sweet 16 (times 2, minus 1)
This year has brought a fuckload of change to my world. Some good, some bad. I have mosdef lost quite a few things this year. Here are a few examples:
~My favorite pair of pink pumps. Can't find those bitches anywhere! Who the fuck loses shoes? Seriously.
~A few best friends. Not lost like they died, but lost like we don't have bestieship really anymore. This makes me sad.
~40 pounds. I don't miss them, not at all. In fact I'm not even gonna look for them or wonder where they went. Fuck being a fatso!
~Love. Yeah lost quite a bit of that shit this year.
~Diamonds. Not so much lost as put safely away. Although they ARE a girls best friend, theres some diamonds you just have to let go of sometimes.
~Trust in people. I have lost a TON of trust in people in general this last year. But on the flip side, I have learned exactly who is really real. This is important.
~My favorite fafi lipgloss. It was a limited edition. Of course I would lose it.
~My keys. This has happened a few times. But Ru says its good, and I should pay attention to this, so I will.
Now, don't get me wrong... I have also found slash gained slash learned a bunch of shit over the last year as well. Such as:
~Love. Yeah lost it found it lost it. It's a vicious cycle, but I'm a sucker for it.
~The iPhone 4. It's amazing, it makes up for the pink pumps I lost.
~Independence. I found that shit. I learned that I don't need anyone to validate me, or make me who I am. I'm the fucking business all on my own!
~40 new pairs of shoes. Apparently one pair for every pound I lost. Yeah, it's become a problem. But I hear the first step is admitting it.
~Self respect. Yup this was a major accomplishment this year. Not that I didn't have any before, but I def didn't have enough.
I think every year in every persons life has its gains and losses. I'm just so super blessed to have my Mini, my Familia, and my amazing friends to carry me through life.(you know who you are) I anticipate the next 12 months will be among the darkest I've had to face yet. But I say fuck it... bring it! My people won't ever let me fall, or forget who I am or what I'm about. I will wreck this 31st year, just like I have the previous 30. I will do it with grace, vulgarity, stilettos, and a motherfucking baseball bat if necessary.
As for today, it will be amazing. In fact, it already has been! From 11:30 last night, to this very minute AMAZING! So for the rest of today, I will once again kick back, relax, and focus on being a pimp.... Actually, I think I'll make that my motto for this entire year! Watcha!