please send soon

In the famous words of Cube... "I don't know but today feels kinda odd". And not odd in a "today is a good day" kinda way, just fucking odd. I'm feeling a bit dark today for several reasons I suppose. I have a million and one thoughts swirling around in my head. I need a coke and a smile that's for sure! Vegas was fun and amazing and somewhat bittersweet. A definite break from reality. I'm blessed to have my CasualS family holding me down. I'm not sure where I'd be without them. I feel like I need some groundedness in my world. My life feels like its being ravaged by tsunami winds if they actually existed. I have this strange falling feeling lately.This worries me on a count of falling always hurts. Maybe it's not so much the falling that hurts, but more so the landing. Something usually gets broken. Not even the most detailed of lists can keep me on track these days. I feel toxic and unorganized. I have more things to do than I have time to do them. I feel somewhat absent not fully present at any given time. I'm stuck in this weird state of confusion and uncertainty. Like unsure if the decisions I'm making are the right ones.  I'm not sure where to go from here. I guess I'll wait for a sign.

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